I am in love with my life, however, lately I haven’t been liking it. You know, like you’ve heard in the movies when a couple fights and one says “I love you, but I don’t really like you right now.” I love so much about my life, but the honeymoon phase is over from my most recent changes. I’m feeling uncomfortable again and yet too scared or uncertain about taking the next step.
As a writer and guided imagery junky, I often seek out images or metaphors that embody my thoughts or circumstances to better understand myself and communicate with others. The image that revealed itself in this situation was stepping stones across a stream.
So far the steps I’ve taken on each stone have been straight-forward. No need to think or worry about what comes next.
Yes, some have made me stretch a bit more than usual, to take a wider step to get to the next stone that is a bit farther away. Now I sense my discomfort is due to the fact that the next stone is much farther away.
It requires a leap.
A leap I don’t feel I’m ready to take. But I can’t stay standing still on this current stone, I’ve grown too big for it. Yet I’m stalled in fear, growing more and more uncomfortable.
And it makes me wonder, is the next step really that far away? Or did the loss of momentum make me lose my nerve?
Standing still, worrying about it isn’t getting me closer to my goals.